The 365 Day Bikini Challenge
Well another year has past and a new one is upon us. Let’s recap my weight loss journey from last year…
Ok, that’s done.
Now, time to move forward. I am instituting the most aggressive challenge yet. I am not sure why I feel that after every attempt and failure at losing this weight I feel the need to up my ante with each renewal of motivation, but I have done it yet again.
For the last two years I have been reading books and articles that relate to changing habits, seeking motivation, the power of food, brain controls and switches, caveman theories on diet, neuroplasticity in the presence of change and new habit conditioning, Dopaminergic mechanisms in actions and habits… you know, light reading. I attempted to read a neuroscience article in a medical journal and stopped after not being able to pronounce 85% of the words in the first sentence, but I got the gist of it. Pain vs. Pleasure. Scientists across multiple fields of study find that defining a living thing’s motivating factors is pretty straight forward… we seek pleasure and avoid pain.
I began to take stock of my life and break down the habits that I have tried to change over the last two years. At the beginning of 2013 my man, as he likes to be called, and I decided to not eat at any restaurant with a drive-thru. We just made the decision and we held to it for three months. That may not seem like a lot of time, but I have literally said that I wasn’t going to eat something again and then turned right around and took another bite of it. So when my track record is that of .01 seconds… three months is awesome. There was the “ I will start to workout everyday after I walk the pup” … first morning, I decided to do 4 loads of laundry, clean all of the bathrooms, and pop in a batch of from scratch banana crumb muffins instead. It is amazing to me to think that I find exercise more “painful” than cleaning toilets. I had to delve a little deeper into my own psyche… because that just seemed crazy!
So, I started reading about self sabotage, fear of failure, our primal reptilian brain gene, the newest in behavior modification techniques… you know what? It all came down to the same premiss, we seek pleasure and avoid pain. So with this in mind I have devised a highly scientific experiment for my weight loss journey…
And no you will not being seeing me in a bikini on here by the end of the year… the challenge is actually just the opposite…
In order for me to go cold turkey and leave behind my bad habits and create my new healthy habits all of my research has said that I have to create extreme pain in engaging in old habits. The pain has to be far greater than the pain that I have associated with exercising everyday and eating healthy… so more painful than cleaning pee pee off the toity. I have been thinking of this for a few days now and yesterday it came to me. It makes me nauseous to think about. It would be utter humiliation. It would truly devastate me to my inner most core… I was drying my hair batting around this “pain “idea and I kept saying I just can’t do it… I just can’t. Nope I won’t do it. Then I realized that’s exactly why I have to. It is the exact thing I have been looking for to initiate my experiment.
So in the name of my scientific experiment I, Erica, instructed my husband to take bikini pictures of me… just as I am, right now. In my plus sized glory and if I falter from my plan even once, he is to post my bikini picture on my blog which in turn would go on Facebook. I have instructed him to do this every time I falter. I can hear the gasps now… I know, what am I thinking? I am thinking that I have a lot of frickin’ faith in science!
So the slate is clean once again. The ultimate goal is the same. My vehicle to get me from point A to point B has changed multiple times, but this one has serious ramifications if I falter. Severe? Maybe. This goal is a must and I said when I started on this journey 2 years ago that if it took 10 years, it took ten years, but this weight is coming off of my body!
Happy New Year!